I clear my throat in the silence of the sanctuary. Eyes closed, I offer the following:
The Baal Shem Tov -- regarded as the founder of Hasidism -- offered the following teaching about what to do when you are engaged in prayer and foreign thoughts bubble up in you. When this happens, he said, don't castigate yourself for having these thoughts. Rather, recognize that the thoughts ultimately come from God.
He would say: if you are distracted from prayer because you've been caught up in fantasy about a beautiful woman, remember that the woman's beauty comes from God, and so does your desire. Don't think of it as getting in the way of your prayer; make it part of your prayer. Lift it back up to God.
The same is true for us. Whatever bubbles up in us, whatever thoughts or distractions -- whether about a beautiful woman or beautiful man, or about politics, or whatever it is -- we can just recognize what comes up, without judgement, and recognize that it comes from God, and lift it back up.
Some moments later, I am distracted from my meditation by a sound.
Scrabble scrabble thump. Scrabble scrabble thump.
Thump thump thump.
I open my eyes. A squirrel is peering into our sanctuary through the glass door. He takes a few steps away, then flings himself at the door, scrabbling to get in.
Then he tries the next little window. Scrabble scrabble thump.
And the window beside that. Scrabble scrabble thump. Scrabble thump. Thump.
Squirrel with churro. Photo by Lorianne of Hoarded Ordinaries.
By now I am holding back giggles as silently as I can. The squirrel is trying diligently to enter our sanctuary, poking and scrabbling at every single one of our small low windows, taking a few steps back and then flying through the air to bang into the glass again. THUMP. THUMP.
Our other meditators have also opened their eyes. We are all laughing. We have been sitting here in silent meditation every Friday morning, some of us for years on end, and we have never seen anything like this at all.
"Obviously he wants to meditate too," one of the women offers. "Their little lives are so busy."
Scrabble scrabble thump. THUMP.
A second squirrel has appeared on the patio and is watching the first one, head cocked. I imagine that he is thinking: what on earth are you doing? Why do you want to get in there?
Then the two squirrels run away. I close my eyes again and return to silence, but the silence is different now, charged with our laughter.
Sometimes thoughts bubble up. Sometimes it's squirrels. It all comes from God.
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